I'm sorry I am so bad at this blogging thing. Honestly I have been going through a bunch of changes this past month and have been really distracted by it.
Over the past month I've started a new part time job at a library, which is where I want to end up eventually, so this is a pretty big test run on if I actually want to be a librarian or if I just really like the idea of it. The good thing is, I'm really liking my job so far and I think actually working in a library setting is going to help me when it comes to some of my classes because I can ask real librarians questions if I need to and they're all really encouraging. It's nice to have that support from them. I have the best coworkers, I have never had such a great bunch of people who hold my same interests, not just in library work, but in books, some nerdiness, culture and history.
I started grad school, it's been about 5 weeks and I'm halfway through my first classes. It's been a bit of a learning curve becoming a complete distance learner. In undergrad I was a commuter and had taken a few online classes, but I always still had class and had interactions with other students, teachers, just people in general. You don't really realize how much you miss the bustle of being forced to be around people on a daily basis. I have always been a busy person. Throughout college I went to school full time and worked pretty much full time (35-40 hrs a week) at a department store, but on a pretty demanding team. I was rarely home, just home long enough to sleep, and I'd be off again. I now work about 16 hours a week, and since my classes are online I don't really have to go anywhere at any specific time, and it's making me a bit stir crazy. I've started baking as a hobby, but I think I'm going to brainstorm some ideas on new things I can do since I do have all this time, and can actually do some things that I always wanted to and didn't have time.
Most likely out of boredom and lonliness I dove headfirst into online dating again. I have been on and off online dating for the past two years, been on some really good dates, some really bad dates and actually found a relationship from it, one that didn't work out, but I don't knock the way we met as the reason. I know a lot of people have many different perspectives on it, but while I believe it's a great way to meet people, I think I'm going to try and wait for someone the old fashioned way for a while. You know they say love comes to you when you're not looking!
Right now I'm just generally feeling that weird transition time after college and trying to figure out life and questioning where I'm going. So much has changed in the past few months and it's just a weird feeling. I think I just have too much time to myself so I'm overthinking things. I don't want to sound like I am completely alone, I love my friends and hang out with them when I can but they are still in school and so they're pretty busy still themselves. Is anyone else feeling like this right now? This weird time of transition?
I know it's technically Saturday so there should be a Saturday Sounds but I think I'm going to hold off on trying to regularly blog for a while. I have made and taken down many blogs in the past because I tried to put too much pressure on myself to be a daily blogger immediately like my favorite bloggers. That just does the opposite effect and I end up not blogging as much. So I'm going to blog when I feel like it for a while, and maybe eventually can keep up with it like so many others do.
*I just wanted to apologize for this long, kind of sad post. I want to be as real as possible with my blog and that means sharing the good and the bad. I'm not always such a debbie downer but I know that others probably are feeling the same way as me. Even if it's not a transition from college to the "real-world", it could be a transition from anything, from moving, to starting a new job, to getting through a breakup. Transistion times are hard but once you get through them, it always gets better. So hopefully I haven't scared anyone off, share your feelings in comments, and have a great day.
Until next time darlings,
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