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I haven't done a Thoughts post in a while, they're generally longer so I apologize for the huge chunk of text!
About a month ago I was going through some of my old things because I was looking for my blue wig for the Color Run. While I was searching I ran across six old Converse Chuck Taylor shoeboxes (they were practically the only shoes I wore in middle school/high school and I still have them!) and all of my friend's old notes. I'm a pretty sentimental person when it comes to saving things. I've not only saved those, but every flyer, program, and movie ticket stub from anything I've deemed important since elementary school. I decided to go through the boxes, organized by year of course, and read through some of the notes.The big majority of the notes came from my best friend in high school, we would write each other notes for every time we knew we passed each other in the hallway, so that was a LOT of notes. I also kept a journal with four or five friends called "The Notebook", and we covered the fronts in all of the hot guys of the day (Orlando Bloom, Jake Gyllenhaal, Benji Madden, Ryan Phillipe, any other early 2000s star), and this we passed to each person and everyone wrote a page. I kept these as well.
I couldn't stop laughing while reading some of these notes. High school kids now just won't have this kind of stuff since they just text each other and that's kind of sad (I make myself sound super old but I'm really not). Lots of the notes were about boys, that super hard test next period that we didn't study for, and really silly inside jokes. While I had fun looking through them and trying to remember how to re-fold them back up, it made me think of how different my life is now from high school, just 5.5 years ago. The first thing I thought of was these friends, the ones I poured my heart out to in these notes, and how not close I am with them anymore. My best friend, the one that most of the notes are from, we haven't really kept in touch, simply because of growing up and life changing, she actually moved out of state recently with her fiance and I wish her the best of luck. The other notes mainly consisted of fellow Girl Scouts and a few band friends. I will always be grateful for Girl Scouts, the group really did make most of us "sisters for life". Of course we all don't hang out every day or have all the same friends anymore, but it's nice to know that when I do see those girls, it's really like nothing has changed.
I also think about how different my life is in just five years. The most I had to worry about was passing Physics and what chair I was going to make in band (I played flute/piccolo). I thought about some funny memories, like hanging out at my friend Jenny's house and playing with a giant millipede she was babysitting for the summer for the Biology teacher, or having my friends climb out of my passenger seat car window because the door was stuck AGAIN. The most devastating thing that happened was the boy I liked (and was probably practically stalking around school haha) didn't like me back. High school is a weird, awkward, but necessary transition period that everyone has to go through, but hopefully you can look back fondly at some parts, I know I still cringe at some memories I won't share. But bad memories teach you lessons, so be glad those happened too.
Now, I think life is pretty great, and once again in a transition period. I have a much smaller group of friends than in high school, and I think it's a good thing. Once life starts to get busy, you really don't have time to keep up with everyone, and everyone else is going through the same thing, so you keep the friends that are truly in your corner and make you smile. Worries have become bigger, finishing school, finding a job, those kind of 20 something worries, but having the most wonderful support group of friends and family helps you not go crazy. Even little things, like style of dress has changed. I went from super tomboy (jeans, band t-shirts, hoodies, and converse) to really girly (dresses and skirts all day, every day). This revelation would make my high school self choke on a gobstopper!
I'll finish this long ramble off with saying I can't wait to see what happens in the next five years. What I'll be doing, where I'll be, where my friends will be, just everything. The future is exciting. I'll leave you with a song since it's stuck in my head, have a great day!